Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Finally all my exams are over and school holiday is coming. I tot that it should be a very good day for me because I can relex le.But actually NO.My dad and didi are all giving me faces, and this give me a really bad mood.

This bad mood make me realise something that I really have little love from the earth. And many many questions came into my mind. Why are people living in the earth? Are everyone like me? Does anyone love me? Are my parents loving me? Do they care about me? Who I am? Why am I living I the earth? Is there any meaningful things that I can do in life?

I'm really mad! Damn angry... My dad say that I waste his money. He only give me $15 dollars a week and can only spent a tiny little amt of his salary. The way he is talking to me is like telling me that I have spent alot of his money and he cannot afford anymore. Did I? He is accusing me.

I watch a very romantic drama show, titled You Jian Yi Lian You Meng. In the show there is a girl that is lack of family love and even lose his true love since she has been admiring from the age of 12. Although she didn't have a happy childhood but at the age of 22 a very romantic and rich man came to rescue her. Although the man is abit older but he really loves the girl and give her many loves, happiness and care. I can say that he is a very perfect man. And this man is the future for her.

I also hope that my prince can come a rescue me. A guy in the show...
I shall stop here today. Good nite...

Wednesday, November 14, 2007Y

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

long time no see...hahas

Many things to say. Umm, went to sentosa today. I really enjoy. It really fun but tired also. I confirm going to Thailand. I'm abit scard and worry because it's the 1st time I going overseas with my school instead of family. And also the place is located at the village, I'm worry there may be insects, and also the food and toliet. OMG...

Then next is the sad things that I really don't wish to say and remember.I try to forget and I tot I and all right but actually not. I give my little brother my hp and I but a reminder regarding my ex bf birthday. I forget to remove it and therefore, it rang today and my little brother remind me about him... my GOSH...What can I do? Anyway, since i know that it's his birthday today, I shall wish him a very happy birthday.I hope he enjoy is birthday today and can be happy every day... =)

Lastly, Good nite everyone... =)

Tuesday, November 06, 2007Y

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

The whole day I was very blurr and angry of myself...

Reason is because my CA for accounting today is really hard and I'm damn angry of myself. Actually I got the right answer but because I can't balance the accounts, so I started to panic. Therefore, I got the wrong answer and my marks just flew away like that...What the hell!!!Why am I was so careless??? =( Of course what I can do now is to pray hard that I won't score too badly, hope I my GPA won't drop too much.

Actually, it wasn't a very good day today. I don't know what's wrong with my MP3, cannot switch on. Then my CA...haiz

My family is so discouraging, I intended to go Thailand to do community service work then they say that I'm too PRINCESS to work in that kind of enviroment. I haven't even say anything they started to discourage me and say negative things that make me feel so bad about myself.And in the end,my self-esteem drop to the minimum level.

IF ANYONE GOT LOBANG TO GET EARN MORE CIP, PLEASE LET ME KNOW. THANKS IN ADVANCE (Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu).

Monday, October 15, 2007Y

Monday, October 15, 2007

Today is the 1st day of sch. Sld be happy as I have been a long time nv see my classmate le. They were still the same. Very cute, adorable, cheerful,ect...

Sch end early today, and I tot that it will be a good day. But now I guess not. I didn't know why things are so difficult for me to understand and know. I think my EQ is really low and my intelligent is even worst. I can't get along well with my mei and dad. It was a scary thing to say that but I guess I am getting to dislike them. I hope it's not true.

After sch, I had my lunch at hm. Then I quarrel with my sister for don't what reason. Later, my mom say that she need to buy somethings and so I say I shall follow her and help her. But I the end they fell asleep. I having stomach cramps and some giddiness so I went to by bed and have a rest but in the end I fell asleep. When I was awake, My dad start to nag at me and was like scolding me. He asked my why did I went to slp and never help out. Now then I know that sleeping without his permission is also a wrong. And his excuse is I want to collect my handphone and I never help my mom then we have to reach there late and bla bla bla.....

Life is hard for me.It hard for me to know and understand. Maybe because I just wish to be a very very simple person but things don't go the way I wish. I feel worry, I feel sad. I was thinking of crying but I know that I is just going to be childish so I won't cry.

I wish that my life is going to be easier. I hope that I will have a prince to save me... hahas =)

Sunday, October 14, 2007Y

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Got a big fight with my mei over a mp3. And again I lose the matched. I didn't feel good today. Tomorrow sch reopen, my handphone was not with me (At the repair centre). Things wasn't good to me make me feel depressed. Earth seem to be black, songs seem to be all sad, no one is smiling.

I hope that someone can talk to me, can tell me that things wasn't what i am thinking. It wasn't so bad and so on.

Just wanna say out so that I won't get sad too longer so I wrote it on my blog...Haiz, but anyway I'm very cheerful. I believe I can be back to normal soon. =D

Tuesday, October 09, 2007Y

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

My attachment is coming to an end. So fast... I will surely miss the people at my attachment company. They were really good to me. But recently, there was a new employer and I didn't really like her much.

Therefore, the people I miss does not included her! I doesn't know what she is thinking but they way she is doing now cannot stay long. She always say that it is new and everything she is doing is very urgent. I can't stand her!!!

I just hope that I can finish this attachment peacefully. That's all

By the way, today is a very important day. It's my didi 18th birthday.
Happy 18th birthday, Ming Yang... =D

Thursday, October 04, 2007Y

Thursday, October 04, 2007

From yesterday till now was my happiest day of all. I score well and was very satisfy with my results. Actually, I was quite surprise with the result I've got. I promise myself that I will continue to study hard and achieve the best result I can.

Today was a very good day too. Very surprise. Very happy. =)

But something that I can't understand is...My sister always like to quarrel with me but actually I don't like. She say that I took HER MP3 but actually it was't her's!!!
But of course I didn't fight back. If not I really can't believe the from 8pm till I sleep...What will be happening to me. Hahas

I really enjoy these wonderful day that I've got and I hope these will be happening everyday in my future... =D